I miss my friends. I'm not sure why I look at old photos...they always just make me sort of nostalgic...even though I shouldn't really be so nostalgiac for a time when I was definately not in a good place health wise. But, even so, I miss it sometimes. Or maybe I just miss the fact that I can never have it back. That now, when I try to be like I used to, I get too tired and I just want to go home and get into bed with my lover and talk and sleep. I thought that we'd all be the same for ever and most of us have gone different ways. Which is normal and good and most of the time I don't even think about this stuff but...right now I am. Maybe cuz it's summer and I'm upset because I'm 20 and I'm working 2 jobs and doing school and I feel like I don't have any time to just hang out but the point is that I'm trying to GET somewhere...and I am definately making progress on the whole getting somewhere part but not much on the whole being here now part.